I am sorry for the complete removal of all my videos from youtube and for the complete deletion of the website.
My reasons are simple, I suffer from depression and SAD – Seasonal affective disorder. I have done for 20 years now, and while I do take anti-depressants (mirtazapine) it seems my dosage wasn’t high enough (it was 30mg now it’s maxxed out at 45mg. The dosage was increased and I’m balanced out again.
Suffering from depression can be bad and challenging enough, but couple that with SAD over the winter months and I get clinically and dangerously depressed.
All I can do is apologise for anyone who followed the blog and my videos, I was in really bad shape at the time. I had planned to publish a blog post entitled depression and suicide, but even I found it too bleak and even a little daunting, so I held off. Maybe I should have posted it…?
Anyway, I’ve restored the blog back to it’s rightful place, I can not do the same for the videos’, so I’ll just have to make new ones eventually.